Felt better now...after the talk with wen...hehe i appreciate that you were there..thanks^^

So think i really am insensitive...its like something happened and i am totally unaware of it.. sai la...eh ting, i wonder if the person u talking abt taking u for granted is me?sorry i did not realised it at all...erm till wen tried to explain to me abt it...

I dun deny the fact that i seem or am closer to sin then u guys, but i definitely did not take you pple for granted!!!or maybe i did?but i dun have that intention at all...so even if i do take ur for granted its subconcious k haha...

this is not the first time this situation is happening to me...it happened in sec sch,in jc n now...guessed i never learn huh.Maybe i was too happy living my life that i forgot about those that i sort of ignore? But ting seriously haha, if its really me that u are talking abt, tell me k? i dun wan to know that u ae unhappy cos of me and yet u are keeping quiet abt it(cant bie1 one... u will burst one day>.<)i know its tough, but i will still try my best to change okie?^o^

cos u guys are my fren ma...i will still be sad if there are misunderstandings between us...if not i heck care one lor...yep...hope this mood can be over soon!!!

yufei 4:52 PM

I dunno why but, it seems that after pasta closed down, my spirits had not lifted that much...thought i would feel better after the whole thing is over instead of waiting for it to come... haha must be happie...i dun really like the idea of getting depression...

huisin was telling me...even thou she always appear strong and happy-go-lucky, she is one of those that cried the most on that day...i was thinking, i did cry, but its only when we are parting... was i trying to be strong?was i cold-blooded?i must admit the cold-blooded part as maybe i was not really attached to there,or issit that i am slow to react?haha...but when i finally shed the tears,i meant them...it was awful...i am not as strong as i wan to be...

today,hmm,well...felt sad again(haha i m really problematic huh?)...yan was talking to wen on msn using my account...when i came back from my shower,i scrolled up and saw bits and pieces of sentences they typed, think its abt hj?then i tried to ask wen wat happen..hmm dunno wen u never get my hint or wat,but u said nothing...actually at tt point i was hurt la...am i drifting away from u?i put it here as i know u will read it, i am not pushing any blame...but just wan to know your thoughts...hm...am i being not caring enough?but i wan to know if there's any problem with me... i dun mind if u dun share everything with me, but if u have problem i am still there to talk to la...no gossip to share at least share burden ma...=)

think i am glad i set up this blog...can talk abt alot of things here^^

yufei 2:22 PM

Finally it came to an end...Pasta Cafe was officially closed on the 23rd of October...The current service staff all went i think...those not working like me,sin,chris,weini,liying etc spent our afternoon and evening crapping all the way till 8plus or so..we were playing stupid games and entertaining ourself, i wonder if it is that everyone is trying to hide their feelings by laughing out loud and trying to escape from the fact that 10pm is aprraoching no matter what happened? At least, thats not the case for me...i do enjoyed myself in their company.

Slowly it came where all the customers were leaving...table 12 came for both lunch and dinner..the lady(a bank owner?) and her mum...they were our regulars..used to criticize them for always coming at the busiest hours and always having so many requests and kept talking non-stop to our staffs(esp the managers and captain). Now,we will begin to miss these regulars ler...
another of the regulars at table 12-- a father and his daughter...we used to comment that his teenage daughter was a beauty and is bound to be even prettier when she grows up. Its is not that she has defined features or wat...but its the air around her and the way the way she holds herself...strawberry milkshake for the dad and beef lagsagne for the girl...as usual..

haha and an uncle who always sat at table 1,he either ordered sirloin steak or snapper when he came...he ate fast..and he always brought along with him a newspaper...he read as he waited for his food..and placed it nicely away while he started eating.its been a long time since i saw him, i wonder if he knows we are closing down?

yufei 7:53 AM

Want to find out where is my bloody result slip...argh where did i dumped it!!!

Baoli break up and patch back with hw...baoli becareful of the choice you make lo..cos the final decision still lies with you. i dun mean tt he is bad but i think u need to overcome the problem between you two la...cos no point patching back when u cannot solve it rite...but still all the best to u=) like i said we will still be there for you...

haha okie go print my notes liao...

yufei 4:02 AM

Suli told me to post more cos she boring nothing to read..wat sia...like i got alot to talk abt.. its always the same issues surrounding me these few days..haha what else can i say?

Oh yah i asked wen abt jianma...like was i behaving very awkward with him during the celebration for the four bday pple(mei,yan,wen,lin).. luckily she said no...actually still quite worried when i took the photo with him. Just worried that if he had got over it...i wont wan him to get any wrong impression..selfish huh? But he told wen maybe still a little...jing was happy to hear tt...y? You all think got chance ah?Dunno...but not for now...

I think i am quite rebellious?i dun wan to be a normal,typical girl that all the guys in sg likes... no demure,sweet,good-natured,gentle and etc..i am who i am. Someone was surprised when he heard i used kns while talking on msn..and he was like..eh abit vulgar...and i was like...so..? the more you dun like it the more i wan to use kns and tmd...i rather be a normal person where only someone special appreciates...

Oh yah sin are u tagging as my no.1 lover?dun freak me out k...hahah yah indeed my lover lor...stick together all day long..we both are bian tai..we only think that the other one looks nice but ownself look sai sai sai...maybe i shld not blame pple for criticising me...

yufei 3:35 PM

Yikes...baoli i cant find your blog le...you shifted it?can tell the new add??aiyoh...our group really alot of problems lately...problematic group...btw ling if u happen to read...your blog also funny funny one...cannot reach the entries page ah...

baoli...i dunno wat to say la..but i really think you shld reflect on ur feelings towards hw. Putting apart watever he did that hurts you, do you actually like him?Are you still holding on because you think that you have put in efforts?Or issit that u dun think u can find anyone else that cares for you?Seriously...you can find a better someone if this one is just not meant to be.Be brave... sometimes its not good to wait and see...a girl's youth is precious and short-term...treasure it..dun waste ur youth waiting for someone who is not worth it...just some of my thoughts.. hope you understand that i dun mean to offend you..

Suli...dunno how is it going for you...but i hope jing did talk some sense into you...sometimes, the more you remind yourself to not think of it, the more it lingers in your mind...dun say it just to confirm with yourself or assure urself...cos it hurts more when u realised that you cant..

Me...duh...same..counting down to 23rd Oct...been emotional and moody lately..why are women so weak in nature?y am i so weak and vulnerable?Really need a shoulder sometimes, dun ask me issit that i want a bf...wats wrong with that?and if nothing's wrong with tt..why ask? Is it not natural for someone to find another person to share the burden with?I hate to cry in a corner... but i will move on...

Anyway, dun worry for me...i am being self-pity towards myself..muahahaha....

Yufei 4:52 PM

Haha finally today is over...cos i handed up the bloody singapore studies assignment...me and sin agreed on something, never be a teacher..in fact i think lecturer worst, cos u need to read shits handed up by students like us. Abit guilty cos did not take part in the discussion of translation project..just sat there rot awhile then go rush my essay liao..i did not reach the quota of at least 2500 words..really dumb, in the first place i mistook characters for words(in word count) and i was happily thinking wah so fast 1000+ words liao then i realise its 200+ only...

i just wan to pass the module...get the credits...and ignore it...

Today was quite touched by the fact that andrew remembered the song that i wanted to hear from the chinese cd...its the one by You Ke Li Lin...or am i being sensitive?but he did specially tune to tt song wor..Quite observant i guess? only memtion i wan hear it a few times, like most pple wont even bother about tt if u r noone special to them...No wonder he was the ladykillerwhen he was young...very caring and attentive, okie but i still feel that he abit escaping from reality at times... Wa if someone i like do tt...can marry him straight away le...hahaha...should be..

yufei 2:16 PM

Stress still..haha cos still have the toopid ss assignment to do..and wat am i doing here?wahahaha...today went for my rhetoric project meeting,think i not much of a help..but i saw my water there lor!! He was heading towards the reference corner...qiao eh..since its Sat and out of lecture hall...

Hope he can notice me??haha but i too short..think he mostly wont...heard from caren today abt some famous bloggers,how they do interesting blogs instead of those that plainly describes one's everyday life..and i was like, hey wasnt tt me???er but i dunno leh...usu my blog is scold scold scold,sarca sarca sarca, curse curse curse....hehehe...

er just read ling's blog...is she in love again?haha good luck girl...but do consider carefully before making any decisions..

yufei 3:56 PM

wah...i think coincidences do occur wor...today went to school to do my NM project..then on the mrt saw a few china youth...think they got off earlier than me..thats was about 3.15pm like tt..
then after i finished the discussion and reach admiralty mrt...i saw them heading home as well and its abt 8 plus ler!!hurhurhur so qiao...

yufei 1:18 PM

Pasta Cafe's closing date has been changed to 23rd of Oct..getting nearer and nearer...damn it. When i am out of that place i wont feel tt sad speaking of it. But once i am working i will be really filled up with emotions...Stupid Andrew la...still sing those songs tt make others cry...i was asking him to tell me where he is posted to so tt i can visit him, and he kept giving those silly answers...he dun wan to tell??or am i being sensitive?really hope to see him again...

Haha ken was trying to get jamie's number...dumb man...y dun he just check the staff record book...it has all the service staff's numbers on it...jamie said its the self-satisfaction of gettin the number from jamie herself.wat duh...he like shutting his ears to the fact tt she has a bf...really pei fu him...

23rd...where should i go after that?to the playground?to the reservoir?i just wanna go to a place to let out all these thats been bottling up inside me..anyway no need to worry for me...i wun go ulu places and put myself in dangers...maybe just sit down...

my english seems to be getting from bad to worse...

yufei 2:56 PM

Numb...thats wat i am feeling right now...towards my schoolwork...they r piling up and i dun feel a thing,thats a bad sign eh? I was wondering if this is the depressing period for my gang( as in the sec sch gang). Other than sin and jing la who are happily in love...if u r not, tell me about it=)

Was worried for suli the previous night...was i too harsh?sorry la suli but i trying to make you wake up using my own violent way...remember that whatever happen u always have us around you okie? same goes for baoli...baoli after reading your blog also quite worried for you eh-_-"'
Why condemn yourself?You are good as what you are now...are you being oversensitive to certain issues? I am sure that if he is true to you, he wun mind about those things that you said abt yourself. And if he does, he is not worth it...so dun worry too much k...we dun wan you to be tt negative about urself...

so like...i wrote the names here...better dun spread the blog add around..

take care
yufei 6:58 AM

Getting emotional nowadays...easily being controlled by my feelings...Pasta Cafe was closing down, though still hoping for a miracle.I heard the wrong date, it was the 7th ofNov instead of 17th, and its last operating day is 30th of Oct. I was not that affected until today when i went to work. Thinking of what sin told me, was suddenly saddened... on that day sure cry...

Duh...why am i such a crybaby...think i am gonna write more things about my friends here... where i can be truthful. i wan them to know what i think, rather them know wat i thinking sometimes... so here must be restricted liao...those who know this add pls dun share k...if not all our secrets everyone also know ah...

Okie need to go do work first...write again when i have the time...

Yufei 3:04 PM

Somethings happened...and i wonder if i should write about them in blog...maybe i should... things happened to me,my frens...so on

one of my fren was sort of out of love i guess...hm love?kinda funny to use that word as the relationship did not developed in the first place. But we can see that she really liked him, first time see that she did tt much just to know him better... i guess, a girl can really blossoms into a beautiful flower just for the guy she likes. she changed, and changed alot...but, does guys really appreciate that..?think most of them still go for looks...kns...go look into the mirror before u judge a girl without using ur brain...

oh talking of one such guy, sin just had the honoured to have him asked about her name n status...he was jing's church fren. to me the worst thing is that we share the same birthday, argh. jing did intro him to me before. It was okie at first on the phone, haha but once i saw him i got scared...cos he belongs to the type that i dislike the most. yeah i do go for looks as well. so i was telling myself i should treat him as a normal fren. Just as i was accepting this new fren and thinking that he was quite ok afterall, jing told us how pissed off she was when he deliberately made physical contacts with her. so...conclusion...he sucks...whether its looks or character.

hope sin is safe cos they live same area...hahaha...should i skip SS tutorial?

yufei 12:12 PM

Just went to read my fren's blog, n her fren's blog, some sort of interlinked...used to heard that he liked my fren, and wat the heck...he now thinking of another girl le, so tt's how long ur feelings can last for another person...well seriously there's nothing wrong for him to change target, but where chose the one he liked before my fren?does that means that he never truly liked my fren before? only he knows the answer for that...

Certainly i am not saying that unjustice is being done to my fren...but just feels that love is never longlasting...if one dun reciprocate, the person wun wait for u(i dun disagree with this as it will only be wasting ur time waiting for someone who dun love u). But the fact is that it seems as if he was really persistent with my fren...yeah it seems...

Matters of heart are complicated...tired of searching for the right one...the right one?haha i sound so naive...who still believe in that?nvm...haha to frens who are reading...i m noy cursing myself to be a spinster...still looking...wahahahahahahahaha...

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