Once again, i read and re-read and think and re-think about the entries..its nothing much but this is my point of view, not to trying to start any counterattack anyway.

For myself, i appreciate the msn messages that u sent me, especially since i am a passive person and i don't usually initiate chats with my friends. I thank you that you always attended my bday celebrations. I always thought i was kind of lucky as you attended my celebrations the almost everytime as compared to others in the group. Perhaps i haven't tried having you as the closest friend among the group, so actually even if you don't give anything i didnt really mind too, your attendance s enough to gain my satisfaction. Even when you didnt show up this year, i was happy enough to receive your sms cos at least i know u bother to sms.

I admit that jing's blog might be harsh in words. I also admit that all those actions you listed out in your blog, you actually fulfilled them. And it's true that wounds created by hurting words are hard to heal. I had kind of taken this whole matter lightly until i saw your reply entry. It is a time when i feel that nothing no longer matters. It is the way how you defend yourself.

We had never try to gang up and punish you with harsh statements. Who is able to punish you when you don't even feel that you have faults? The only thing i notice is, whenever you acknowledge about one thing that jing mentioned, the next thing you do is to defend yourself. You said you are hurt, you are sad. What about us? You think making you frustrated and sad is our main aim?You think we are enjoying ourselves watching you suffer? No. We just want to let you know what we have been experiencing. You feel that you don't deserve whatever treatment you got, what makes you think we deserve what you did to us? How do you think i felt when after persuading sin to share a small bouquet of flower with me all i got was a comment "Ey i think you gave me this before"(which we didnt) instead of a single "thanks"? At this point of time you might think i am exaggerating but putting yourself in my shoes, i am sure you feel the same way?

Also, expensive gifts dun equal to decent. I can throw a Chanel bag at my fren and expect them to like it cos it is branded. This, is not decent. Me and my jc group also have lower budgets. But we took turns and time to go out together to at least choose something we thought the bday girl/guy can use or will like, and we will try to organize everyone together. This, is decent.

If we have been materialistic and superficial. We would have severe ties with you and Suli long time ago, since us, with more spending power as working adults would lugi cos we cannot expect to get expensive gifts from you guys. If we have been materialistic and superficial, sin wouldnt have suggested students pay lesser for the chalet, since it would mean you guys were gonna leech on us.