Sickening...fumbled a test and lesson...my tutor now had a negative image of me...must try to pull my results up...damn it..was upset and demoralised..but i guess no point crying over spilt milk...depression for one night had already wasted me enough time...i better try to buck up! 9:07 PM

Done too many bad things...punished.i lost all the photos tt we took in mind cafe...sorry ling...i am terribly sorry...i dunno wat happen...it just sudddenly went bonkers and the card was not readable...

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Slapped my head just now...cant stand myself...how dumb can i get.....................i needed that stupid ink catridge so much....and yet i kept forgetting to get it..................and when i finally got it.......................i didnt check for the colour................i wanted black.........not colours.................... felt like crying.....i know its lame to cry for these small things..................but i just suddenly got so angry with myself..................U IDIOT!!!!!!!! 1:46 AM

Haircut today.I need to trim my hair more than i did actually.Dunno why it grows so fast...my fringe needs little time to start poking into my eyes....somehow,i felt like a dog.

The lady pinned my hair up and only left the back part of my hair down.So it was abit like the hairstyle women have in martial arts series.I count my blessings to be born in this modern times. I look like transexual lor-.-like some guy trying hard to make himself too like a girl...sadz... 5:50 PM

Gone case sia...after struggling with my last min notice japanese homework..i am wide awake now!!!muahahahaha...But its actually not last min,i think my lecturer mentioned it during the syllabus talk..just that i did not print it out.

I was hoping to revise the reading before tml's lecture so that i wun stun when questions are asked..but now...oh well,too late to regret.Can forsee that this is gonna be a tough semester.Never have i felt this stressful in all the past beginning of semesters.Can feel that 24hrs for a day is simply not enough.

I found out that my brother admires someone just now,around 8 to 9pm.And this is actually the second girls that he admires.I always thought only funny things filled up his mind.My bad.He was on msn and his 2 other girl de frens were like telling him to treat them so that they will tell him abt the girl.I dunno abt the way teens talk now, but they dun sound too friendly to me.I was like...ey u got money to treat meh? Pls dun let my brother be bullied!!!

I was supposed to go brush my teeth and gettting into bed...but i am awake..and thus i am typing...zzz...how would tml be? 1:18 AM

Melodies Of Life

Music: Nubuo Uematsu/Lyrics:Ciomi
Translation: Kako Someya & Alexander O.Smith
Arrangement: Shiro Hamaguchi

Alone for awhile, I've been searching through the dark,
For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart.
To weave by picking up the pieces that remain,
Melodies of life- love's lost refrain.

Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why.
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye.
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold.

In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me.
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name.

(Chorus)
A voice from the past, joining your and mine.
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes, on and on.
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying birds- forever and beyond.

So far and away, see the bird as it flies by,
Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky.
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings.
Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings.

In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me?
Was it fate that brought us close and now leaves me behind?

(Chorus) Repeat

If I should leave this lonely world behind,
Your voice will still remember our melody.
Now I know we'll carry on.
Melodies of life,
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts,
As long as we remember. 1:22 AM

Ey...dun just say i am acting cute...bloody...find a better skin for me la...only use hand type nia still wan comment so much.

After so much trouble..finally i got the music i wan running in the background.Ey i liked this song alot..actually until now i still dun fully understand wat it meant...but the melody is sweet and yet, sad. Came across this when i was playing FF9..the game was not as popular as FF8 and 10..However it got a its own unique style. Will post up the lyrics next...can skip it if ur not interested. 1:14 AM

Changed my skin...not as cool as vincent de le...haha sorry yan!But wen this time u wun get blinded le ba?

New semester began le..still trying to pick up the study momentum...Still worried for presentations that my hands/legs/voice will tremble.And of cos my exam...must get merits at least la...biang...

My quote of Semester1 2006/2007 (that made wenjie laugh like siao) :

People with high cap point should be thankful,without pple like me...You guys think ur can get so high ah?I support the base u climb up the bell curve k.Faster say thank you.

Ey if ur dun think its funny dun tell me can,it hurts.

I envy pple that dun smell even though they sweat. 11:57 PM

Some kind of war going on eh?Quite extreme i would say.Didnt wan to get involve...but cant really just sit there and relax while my frens are being criticised?

Actually,i dun really think its good for u to say that of baoli.She has always been like that, and i would say that she is the most gentle girl among us.You didnt kan4 cuo4 ren2 like wat you said. She must have her own reason for saying what she had,and she added "no offence",at least,she bother to add.Just because of one sentence that she typed,you called her stupid?I thought she was quite nice to you also.

Okie next to sin.Its true that she was being harsh, and might have hurt you using the words, okie her fault.But i would like to say on her behalf that she does know you even though she might be a stranger to you.She is one of jing's closest frens.And one fact,girls have no secrets.That's a hint.We all quite agree on that issue. Its like, even jing had told you before not to call her that(and she was serious),why cant u listen?So its not like only sin was against it. Yes of course to you it might be nothing more than a nickname.But sometimes really need to consider abt others' situation ba.She has a bf,and her bf does not even call her a name half as mushy as that.What if her bf was tt kind of guy that get jealous easily?Then you would be putting jing in a difficult situation leh.Its something like a kind of respect i think.Sometimes, some things cant be put off by just a simple statement of"I dun care wat others think"or "But i dun mean that". And what would it be if any of jing's not-so-close frens happen to come into situations where they know you call her that(and she has a bf)..i dun think it would really reflect well on her.

Despite the fact that all the above are just "if",i still think that if you had respected her, you would not have continue calling her that.Its not like she likes it cos she never stop u from calling that, its just that she has no choice.I know u are not happy that sin said all those,but the way u phrase things..its nothing better.Pls dun say cos she was being yada yada yada and thus u are just repaying her using her method, thats call degrading urself. She is not some pple who thought she is perfect.You dunno her well, who are you to say that too?She certainly dun go orchard grabbing pple to tell them they are ugly.

Up till this point, i supposed you are thinking, so fei is just one of these kind of pple who like to go around scolding pple and misunderstanding pple.If you are not thinking tt way,i thank you.If you are thinking something along tt way,its fine with me too. I never forget abt the times we spent crapping and mapling before.In fact, i appreciate that u always helped me in the game and talk to me. So pls dun say that we only wan to take advantage of you before and now wan to bully u or kick u aside. I just felt that, sometimes u need to change ur mindset.

Not really related to the topic,but guess i should say it out anyway.It would sound bad, but i really think that its the best if u can change.And sure its okie if u think i am talking shit, cos u can have ur own point of view.I know you always try to be good to frens and try to help.Thats nice, cos i myself cant do that.But one bad thing, it seems to me that,most of the time u think that u are the victim.

We all wanted to advise u to forget abt tt certain girl.You wanted to go on.Later you decided that you should move on,but u insisted that u wan to keep ur promise of waiting for tt certain number of days.When jing tried to talk you out of it, u made it sound like including her some of ur frens kept mentioning that to hurt u further.(And pls dun blame jing if i am not supposed to know cos just nice she was at my house tt day ur talked)Seriously, these frens are the ones that really care...they just dun wan you to waste your time, and you said they were adding on to the wounds.If i got a close fren like tt...i would consider giving her a tight slap and ask her to wake up from her bloody lala land.Waiting for someone you wan to give up is not keeping a promise, thats called wasting time. Pple around you got hurt when they saw you down.

Pls..stop trying to be mr nice...sometimes it doesnt work.You complained to jing,and asked her to enjoy her day..how was she supposed to enjoy after she heard you complain?Such "good treatment" you received doesnt come frm nowhere.It might have been something u did that offend others.And yet the thing that come to ur mind was my fren is stupid and its a waste tt u treat her quite well...I am quite positive that she treated u well before too and in the end she received a "nice" comment also eh?When u announced that you are not visiting the blog cos u r not welcome, thats abit duh and again puts jing in hot soup.Of course u can visit it,who can tie ur hands and stop u?I might be petty but i supposed u just wan to show that u r in no mood to quarrel with the barbarians in the taggie.But really...like something i heard before, the person who really wan to commit suicide dun go around telling pple he/she is going to.

Well, by now i think i do sound like an ass.Like it or not,thats wat i observe.If you think everyone is scolding u and criticising you, then let it be.The world dun revolve around one person, everyone is linked and one thing triggers and affects other events easily.When you think many pple are against you, one way to solve the problem is to reflect.No point everyone against u for nothing.I understand that its easy for me to just talk, but unfortunately thats the fact. Thats all i have to say...i am okie with how you look at me now.My views might have faults, but thats what i observe.And i am totally fine with you accepting or not.Just note that, other than encouragements, criticises also push for improvement. 8:37 PM

Was at the gym today with jing.She dragged me down to exercise...i was sososososo sleepy! But since i cant get myself to slim down,i should at least try to prevent getting fatter eh..

Anyway someone caught my eye.No water. Its a muscular guy.So wat abt him?Okie, there is nothing wrong with him being muscular and fair of course. But the thing was, he was wearing this singlet/sleevesless sportswear(i couldnt make it out) which like only cover 1/6 of his body?i dunno it shrunk or wat...but its disgusting.And..his short pants were bearing flowery prints which looked obiang.Plus..i dunno if i was suay or wat...oh but jing saw it too..so i guess i am not alone, anyway,we saw tt sticking out from his pants at the back was his red underwear.

DUH!!!

Wat the wat the wat the wat the, this is not right man!!! I told jing i condemn him. Jing said on msn wah u anti him so much or something like tt,i said no...not anti,its just tt he blinded my eyes.Inconsiderate sia...use so little cloth to cover...wan show off his muscles or wat..dun say no money to buy lor..come gym also need money one k. Bloody..i hope he can stop terrorizing pple.

Later i went Popular.A women was paying for some kind of rolls of papers.There were a total of 6 long thin rolls. She requested that the cashiers used something to bundle them up cos it was quite hard for her to carry them in a plastic bag.Then one of the cashiers tried to bundle them using a small plastic bag.The lady then said like not secure...can make it more secure?Cos she was afraid hard for her to carry.

At this time,i was whispering to jing"her fingers too short to cover them"....i know it was bad.i had short fingers myself. But she really so troublesome lor~pple queuing behind leh...bloody the plastic not firm dunno how to pluck out the tape then tape more firmly meh...still must request again.Then the auntie who redo it still go used a new plastic bag...recycle ma...the previous bag not poisoned also.Just for tt stupid 6 rolls or paper...tt miss made it till like she gonna carry tt 6 rolls and walk ALL the way back from Yishun to Woodlands.So jia lat...next time bring trolley lor.

I got the clothe from sin today..nice=)thanks to sin's mom. 10:23 PM

Damn i got it again...she told yan i only care abt myself...i never said i was a good sis..when i tried to tell him something that meant well...did they see?Nah-uh. Yes i am selfish...i cant even manage my own life,how am i suppose to help?...i only know how to enjoy myself.Happy?

Sometimes i think i am kind enough..celebrate that till now i have yet give him a tight slap. Ur think it dun hurt me when i scold him?sure i do wan to vent out my anger..but at the same time i am tired of repeating myself.

Luckily she soften her tone later and just tell me to try my best...that helps... 10:03 PM

Wa biang...sian...i sort of made my brother angry today..but i dun really wan to admit that i am in the wrong..its he like to say and act differently lor.And its nothing big deal also.

Cos my mom know that my bro likes all these kind of uniform/army kinda things...so she asked him ey next time can go march lo?And he was like..gave tt kind of reply saying that he was not into tt and he would ather not go.Then not long after he was swaying his arm like those marching guys...and i was like...who said he was not interested?So i said u like say la..still say dun like...and he replied oh i just wan to sway my arms(yeah right!!!)...so i bombarded saying dun lie la..then he black face.And my mom was saying y i need to do that.

Duh. Even sin tot that its he bo liao lo...15 yrs old liao still like tt.I dun really like pple who do something other than wat they say and still dun wan to admit it.Come on la..not as if u go smuggle drugs or wat...very shameless meh...

At night...my mom asked me to have some tidbits..i said no la..(cos i ate a pancake earlier on and i dun really enthu in trying new stuffs)So she said..ur dad was right abt u..the stuff u ate no more than 20 kinds..Okie i know i am being a jerk here...but the next thing i brought up was that my bro also dun eat alot ah.They(auntie and mom) rebutt that but actually he got try all these tidbits...

SO?!i dun always eat fried rice and chicken rice and mac when i go out lor...so i said when i go out eat ur never see ma...so next time i should take photos of watever i eat and make sure they pass 20 kinds la?.......................freaking...i dun dislike him becos of this...i just hope that they can stop that...stop siding him...maybe i think too much...but sometimes its really sian lor.........ur ever thought about how i would feel? 10:52 PM

Happy to know that i am not the one and only lazy bum in friendster..i found 2 pple who are as lazy as me in updating!!!thats tjy and pcb...always same photo de..for goodness sake update la...even i got sick of my photos.. 7:07 PM

Finished scanning through some blog entries of a cousin of mine.Read some from her friends too. Can conclude that one of her guy friends like her.Its damn obvious i would say, wonder if she know?

Kids (or teenagers?) nowadays made me puzzled. I am constantly reflecting back...was i like this in the past,when i was a 12-yr-old prat?I do remember having a crush..but how do i feel that time?Did i feel that it was true love or something?Whether it was or not...i would still like to be an asshole and said that true love dun really exist in teens..esp sec 2 and below.The young boy asked"Is it true love?i dunno"..luckily he said dunno...if he said he does know..i would be waiting to see how long can his true love last.What is becoming of kids nowadays?Why are they so matured/acting to be matured?And no...i am not saying all these because i did not met my "true love" during sch days and thus living in a world of jealousy.Its a fact...even friends around me think so.

Oh yeah.. and the young boy said he ought to blog everyday just like my cousin.1st thing first,he failed.Second,i dun see the point.In my point of view..(cos i like to write down things in detail), blogging is sometimes difficult for me.I would need to recall alot of things cos i wun wan to just write abt how i eat slp shit for tt particular day.Maybe its just that i like to torture myself la, but i dun see the point in blogging about my shit unless they came in different shapes everyday. Diao i think i off topic liao...wat i wanna say is..he just wanna por my cousin...still mention wat dooms day is near due to psle...duh..then go study la...blog ur bloody head la.. 4:05 PM

Got a notebook finally..its the start of another problem.I am poor with gadgets...but the ironic thing is that i cant live without them.I am surprised at myself.How i managed to keep creating problems for my brains to crack.

Currently,since the external drive gave up on me and plan to erase my photos and musics and watever documents i stored in it.i had to think of ways to recover them...songs and docs okie la..but i wan my photos...so if ur read this pls send me watever u have.Thanks.

Next i need to find out how to know whether i am using my own network instead of tapping on others'.And how should i prevent other pple from tapping on mine.Then i need to install various necessary stuff before i create a recovery disk out of it.Finally next time i should double save my info on cds in case my drive decides to make me crazy in the future.

Friday...is a day of waiting.Firstly i waited for the bus96 cos the previous one was full.i could have got in if not for me getting out of the queue to check if i was in the right one.And i queued all the way for the notebook.Appreciated the guy who tried to give me an overall view of all brands.Even though he was cheating me to buy acer, i dun mind haha. First i need to wait for someone to call my name so that i could confirm the D/O...i was sort of in a hurry as i was meeting wen and guys for ktv.Was abt to ask the person when she called out my name when i was in front of her.Next i need to wait for the cashier to call my name so that i could make my payment.And i need to wait to collect my notebook...where an uncle is gonna call my name again. Its quite paiseh..he used a mic and repeated 3 times of my full name-.-.Lastly,i need to wait for some to call my name (AGAIN) so that i could have someone set up the windows.

I was glad that the person helping me tried to be patient with me even though he himself was abit stressed up.But i couldnt say that i was in a good mood with all this waiting.Moreover when i saw him like crapping with the previous girl,i was like...y not let me go first..get it and over done with..and u can go on and continue flirting?I can be 97% sure that i took a shorter time then her.But still i felt quite sorry towards another staff cos i simply gave him the "kill me" mode when he asked me did i came first.During all this..i saw jy's fren yongrui and jianchao...but jianchao couldnt see me with his height.

Didnt even bother to worry abt ktv later..i wun get to go.I just asked them to have lunch with me.Was relieved that wen helped ask the guys to help me carry my stuff...thanks ws!cos tiring leh..Jing was waiting for me..so sorry~and together with her we met jianchao again at night to pass him the bday present.Happy Belated Birthday~crapped abit with him and went home. 3:36 PM




3rd day..a more eventful and tiring day..cos we planned to go alot of places today..okie not "we"..i did nothing..just a fei4 wu4.this is on our way to the Smokehouse...we decided to walk down and admire the greens.Jing kept spotting funny things like fungus/mushrooms, beetles...too bad no worms there.







Flowers and beetle~lalala~...














Jing bullying the dandelions(dunno if theres any spelling mistakes)..the flower so botak le still keep blowing=x










Looks nice..didnt seem like we were in msia..but the malay banner gave us away haha..
















Interior of the restaurant..












Waiting for food... 2:52 PM


2nd day..I look ugly...i dunno why they all wanted to squeeze inside here for the photo...cos it looked cosy?But in reality its like pigsty lor...Its in the 2nd morning after jing and liam went out for a walk/jog.Heard from sin that yl wanted asked me and sin go jog also..cos he know we very nua...wun chiong...wat the..dunno whether i shld be happy or not-.-








Taken before the swim...Behind this pavillion(?) there is a small pond with a small bridge,and i really mean small...3 steps to cross it for me,one step for yl most probably.Inside the pond there were 2 fishes.The water became quite dirty on the last day...very erm..mouldy?






Ey the babes...omg so hard for me to type that out!!!(dun angry ah)Taken inside the pool with us inside nia..we owe the swimming pool!!!Got an arabian uncle who brought his kids in la..Liam said dunno if we had offended him cos he refused to help us take a photo.But well..he did had a small chat with liam...maybe girls here too bold for their culture?Liam even shouted "Come join us!!"wa lao...so paiseh...not as if we opening party...Sin was quite scared when the uncle started swimming cos he splashed out alot of water and sin dun like water splashed at her.


I took de!nice?oh well not my problem anyway since i not in it muahahaha.Ey here cannot see liam de stomach hair not fun hahaha...liam has alot of energy..he never siam any forfeit and was the first to rush on shore(?) to do the push-ups forfeit.But of course...he on..other guys kena pulled down also..









Still look funny despite the macho action...macho de ginger bread man~~~












Wat were we playing..?Bridge...?think so...i dun even know if its at night or morning...oh but i was in jeans...shld be at night waiting for shower?but that looks like the shirt i wore on the second day..aiya WATEVER la...sick of recalling.










I dunno why they bring shades since i heard that there is no UV rays in cameron..plus this was the time where we were going out at night.Jing's shades were new as she just bought them on the first night.While she chose the others like accompany empress shopping like tt..keep finding things to browse at..








Something familiar eh...we already saw it on the way to cameron...looks like KFC hor..we had been making guesses on wat does KLG stands for..sin said Kampung Little Goose...cb go for KL Guey..how to spell KL?In the end i asked..its Kuai4 Le4 G(J)i1...maybe kuai4 le4 guey1?hahah its sign saying closing at 1030pm was not true..think once nothing much they 10 closed le.. cos we went there at 10plus...and they told us they were closing(thats the 4th night) 1:42 PM






Before our journey begins.Its around 9am plus in the morning.At the golden mile complex the girls went to the toilet.Abit cmi sia...haha and ulu somemore.Anyway,i forgot who took this photo 0.0i wonder if we looked tired?i woke up at 6plus leh...and last min still searching for my lock.




The stop where we got down for lunch..time was like about 12plus..i ordered chicken rice..i did not feel like eating though.Then few asked me how was it...i could only say..okie lor...edible but not exactly delicious.Others ordered hotplate..liam did took photos of the food but the loading on blogger really very slow(or was it my comp's prob?), so i decided to give it a miss.After eating we dabao some ramli burgers and jing bought a thin flat piece of walfer.It was quite nice...sin bought something which she tot was not nice...and she offered the others..so bad de sin=x I regret buying the burger
cos i was practically stuffing it into my mouth later on.

Stopping at somewhere in malaysia to transfer bus. Now i appreciate liam for booking a private van for us.At least it made the journey more comfortable. i had constantly been checking if jing's hippo ah neh was still with me.It was a mini white van that we board.The driver had this pirated cd playing.Its okie though since i knew most of the songs.There were alot of bends along the road.Alot of signs that i did not understand, and many preventions to landslides.Looking at the preventions already made me worried enough.




Arriving at the resort finally...this was taken in front of the lobby.We saw notices for organised tours and photos taken during those tours with previous visitors.But the photos were dated back to like 1993?In order to counter the cold,i ate ice ceam with jing.I think i wrote this before..but nvm just let me repeat.We dumped our luggage on the floor here.






Was this taken before we went out...or when we went out=xAt the diagonal right of yl's head was this sign saying no durians allowed.However its cross sign had faded away.And in the first place we thought our room was called Durian-_-.
Jing told cb abt it and since then i think he really kan4 bu4 shuang3 tt sign.He is getting sick of durian thanks to jing.Yl was wearing the jacket they bought in HK!Cool huh...its cheap and nice and stylish~






Where the jacket came into action...Liam looked good in his jeans jacket too..ONLY if he can stop acting smart haha..For cb..ey his jacket de colour match that of his pouch.One day i would find a chance to burn the pouch.








The outside view of the resort..not of ours though i supposed.Cos we were facing the another side where there were no place for us to stand and take this shot(our room is situated on a cliff of some sort).










The living room,where we watched disney channel for 24hrs(joking of cos) straight and gambled,and laughed,and dio complained,and ate many many tidbits and slacked.The balcony had a nice view but many insects on its ceiling.










The room which i wanted initially.It became sin n yl's room for first 2 days and jing n liam's room for last 2 days.The rotate agreement was a scandal.









Somewhere on the road,in between the resort and the lobby.The water doesnt always flow there.











Our first steamboat and dinner!!!oh well not really first steamboat,cos we only had 2 steamboats in total.Was glad that i got to seat in the middle.Then i could easily get my food from the herbal/tomyam side (jing's side) and the herbal/chicken side (sin's side).Sin and jing had a mini arguement of whether chicken soup better or tomyam soup...the result was that herbal soup was the winner...tala~~!!!!Someone nominated herbal soup in the last min.

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