Friday, November 24, 2006
Long time never write anything wor...anyone notice...?I heard from suli i need to get 4.8 in order to climb back to 3.2 for my cap point....farewell my pass-with-merit.I cant even anticipate the homestay...sounds more like paying money go there to get tortured...kapui~
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
12:05 AM
Monday, November 13, 2006
First thing first, dunno if you will read this or not, but i sincerely apologize on what i comment on the girl you like. i am reflecting. However, i also wan to tell u that, actually i have totally nothing against her...it was kind of because of you, thats why i sort of went off track in criticising.
If you think its kid's stuff then dun read on cos i am just gonna grumble about my part.
One thing, i am kind of sian when u tell me abt ur forever-seem-like-no-result r/s. Yes yes i understand u like to take it slow...but i always get mixed up. You always sound to me like u very not confirm, then asked me how she think...like gan jiong about it, but in the final end after all the advice and opinions i gave, u told me u also would like to go slow and u have other things u worry about. What u trying to show me? i dun really understand. If u just wan a listening ear tell me and i can shut my foul mouth up and be a good listener. Cos i always think u contradicting yourself, thats y i got sian. Since u okie with waiting, whats the problem?
Another point, i know this is a really nice girl and you are really good to her...and the situation is diff from ur previous r/s...but...forgive me...u repeat quite a few times le...its nothing special that a guy go after a girl ba?
Also, i know u got pissed with me somehow cos of my foul mouth(i admit la) and remind me u always patiently listening to me without bombarding me back. I know de, i know u are not petty. But one thing i wan u to know also. Do u know there are also times when i felt humiliated and yet i didnt voice out cos i dun wanna spoil the friendship between us? Due to ur constant reminder, i am reminded for a few times how childish i am supposed to be. I know u got ur serious side and fun side, but can dun emphasize to me that towards me and my friend then u might seem fun but towards others u can be very serious? In this way i really felt stupid, like i have no brains to communicate with u on serious matter. Once is okie, but the second and third reminder really puts me off. We only have an age gap of a few years...i know u r mature, but can dun always treat us like xiao mei mei?For u u think its nothing, but for us we feel like shit -filled-brains.
And i know my limits when i am at work. I dun deny i am still immature, but its only towards some i show my temper, so even if i might have mislead u with my shitty attitude, i am not like that in work. I am young, but i am not that ignorant.
I enjoyed times when u shared with me things abt sch and work, cos i felt appreciated, i felt like i am on par with u,that i am a friend, not some kids. If u think u are always fair, pls be fair in this sense too.
Okie, let out le, felt much better. Good luck for exams people=D
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
9:14 PM
Monday, November 06, 2006
6 to 7 days since my last update. Read my cousin's blog just now..it gets me puzzled over her mindset. She is in pri 5 this year, so like next year would be her PSLE. She is getting good grades..almost all As..then she wrote that she hope she can get better grades than my brother.
So i was thinking...y it seems like pple all like to overtake him? She is not the first one as far as i know. Seriously, my brother got only 198 for his PSLE..he had never been one of those who never worries parents, so hmm.. what is so satisfying about winning him=.=? With her A grades it is so easy that she gets higher marks than him. Does she really hate him that much that she never wan to lose to him or she just wan to jeer at him? Hmm..so now i am trying to decide should i hope that she dun get good enough marks to be too cocky, or should i be a neutral party and pray for her to pass with flying colours? I dun dislike her...just that sometime the way she treat my brother i bit pissed off...oh well, thats not up to me to decide anyway.
Study period...faster arrive!!! I need you!
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
9:09 PM
