Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Long time since i updated...ok not really that long cos its still within one month since the last post. Sin asked me to dedicate a post to her...what can i say?
Its not like i had not been seeing interesting things these days...just that they are not THAT interesting enough to motivate me write them down=x
Biggest problem i am facing now-but i dun considered it a problem anymore as its more or less decided- i am gonna stay for one more semester in school to complete another module. Why am i doing this? Cos i need to take 2 humanities modules to fufil my graduation requirements, but this semester only offers 3 such modules, 2 of which are Level4000 modules. Decided to drop the 4000 modules and go for 4 modules this semester.
Sickening decision i would say. Who wouldnt wan to graduate? Many friends advised me to just chiong and appeal for the module... but still i made the decision of giving the 4000 module up. I would have thought the same way as them, its kind of dumb and lame to stay for another semester and pay a few thousand dollars just to take one more module. But i realised that its not really worth the risk...cos even without the bell curve, i dun think i might be able to pass it. Maybe cos they never saw the description ba haha. It gives me a familiar feeling, one which i felt last semester..and its disgusting...its not simply feeling stupid or lousy...nor was it just something that can be passed on with just a shrug of shoulders. What i felt was extreme uselessness and disappointment. No matter wat i went through in the previous semester, i was always able to make up for it and tell myself, "Hey no big deal...just do better the next time". But certainly it did not work then.
I am bad at words...so i cant describe precisely what i am going through then. Just hope that your can understand and give me your support, i do not regret making that decision, but i need you guys to stand beside me.
Oops..i dedicated the post to myself instead of sin...haha sorry..
Have not been reading my friends' blogs lately..paiseh neh...will try to update myself asap^^
Take Care
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
12:29 AM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
First post of the year. Nothing great...it has not been very eventful for me these few days. First things first...ey wen, lin, ting (i realise there is a certain order when i need to address all of ur together), meet up soon leh...wan pass ur present..though nothing big la..very small gift only..haha but still wan to pass them to ur=x And sorry leh miss lim(s), didnt wish ur bon voyage...but still hoped ur enjoyed the vietnam trip=D
Trying to enjoy my work for this week...cos my manager not in...can slack abit...oh yeah and i have not started sending resume...how=.= i have no idea where to go??!! Such a typical aimless youth i am... Got so many things i wan to learn...but i think discipline is one thing i seriously lack...
Just read a fren's blog...sometime's its kind of interesting to read the past entries and the more current ones together. You can sound very happy in one of them...and ur mood turned rotten at the next...guess after one yr or so when we review them, we will be suprise at how our emotions were and took change at that point of time. Something like a record of life? Haha nah dun think it should sound so great.
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
12:21 PM
