Sunday, October 30, 2005
I dunno why but, it seems that after pasta closed down, my spirits had not lifted that much...thought i would feel better after the whole thing is over instead of waiting for it to come... haha must be happie...i dun really like the idea of getting depression...
huisin was telling me...even thou she always appear strong and happy-go-lucky, she is one of those that cried the most on that day...i was thinking, i did cry, but its only when we are parting... was i trying to be strong?was i cold-blooded?i must admit the cold-blooded part as maybe i was not really attached to there,or issit that i am slow to react?haha...but when i finally shed the tears,i meant them...it was awful...i am not as strong as i wan to be...
today,hmm,well...felt sad again(haha i m really problematic huh?)...yan was talking to wen on msn using my account...when i came back from my shower,i scrolled up and saw bits and pieces of sentences they typed, think its abt hj?then i tried to ask wen wat happen..hmm dunno wen u never get my hint or wat,but u said nothing...actually at tt point i was hurt la...am i drifting away from u?i put it here as i know u will read it, i am not pushing any blame...but just wan to know your thoughts...hm...am i being not caring enough?but i wan to know if there's any problem with me... i dun mind if u dun share everything with me, but if u have problem i am still there to talk to la...no gossip to share at least share burden ma...=)
think i am glad i set up this blog...can talk abt alot of things here^^
yufei
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
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