Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Lemme just cut in for awhile before i continue my bday events...today was working at the florist...saw alot of pple...belle and christina bought me present...realised tt beeching has the same bday as me...lots of cute customers...oh got one very goodlooking...haha dian dao..
Oh..then i saw him...or so i tot...before i had seen a few that look like him...but when i really recognised him..i was shocked...i wanted to hide,i dun wan him to see me,cos i wun know how to react,but my legs were not moving,however he soon walked away...with a she...
It's strange...i dun like him anymore...even during that time when i did..like i said before..i cant even pictured the 2 of us together(just seems so strange)...he is not on my mind always..only occasionally...i thought i got over it...and i think i did...but when i saw her hold his hand...the next thing i notice is that tears started to well up...duh...i did not cry la..so many pple there...told jy and chistina(who announced to belle),the 2 girls didnt take it seriously thou...in the end i asked for permission to go to the ladies...i was struggling with myself. Should i cry? yes of course...just vent out wat u wan...y torture urself by remaining silent? but no..y shld i? he is not worth it...y shld i waste my tears on someone who dun even care?(no offence)..i sat down..in the end all i did was wiped the moisture from my eyes...and went back to work..
i began to take it easy...i can still laugh and be stupid...then i realised that somehow...it does not really matter if that is him, or just that my eyes were playing tricks on me(in the first place i was determined of going on friendster to check his status). Cos i took it for real... and i experienced the feeling..finally i can move on...sort of relieved..but i can say that at that very moment..it truly hurts. actually its expected la...i really look like shit last time...now abit more human-like...
sounds stupid but...think he is the only guy i cried for?over nothing thou...i am dumb sia...sometimes i wonder, would it be better if i am those kind who prefer to stay single? maybe i can feel happier that way...it can be fun and tired at the same time when one person starts to like another...i wun call that falling in love thou...since i dun think i understand tt...
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
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