Thursday, June 15, 2006
"Sometimes ppl juz like to gib u a slap out of nowhere and they never realise the fact tat its not nice. Wait till they got the same thing in return and they would eventually know how it feels. No matter how much you trust a fren, once they destroy it means they do not wan you anymore so y bother."
Something that i saw in a friend's blog...correct me if i am wrong...but i think that the "ppl" is referring to me? Firstly, regardless of whether its me or not, i would like to explian the situation of why i m pissed with u my friend.
I do appreciate that u always initiate msn conversations with me as i m a lazy bum. I do realised that whenever i prompt you about some details you do not seemed willing to tell.Well either its that or u were really busy and away. I respect ur decision as it up to u whether u wan to share or not.But however, sometimes i would prompt its because i care...u typed things like "fei i m sad" or "hai", sorry if i am naive and childish or wat...but these means something to me, i would really suppose that u need someone to lend u a hearing ear.And so, i asked you wat happened...and its either u disappeared, or u try to avoid answering.
And of course...since u dun feel like confiding in me,i am okie with it and not mad abt it,cos its ur decision. Naturally...i dun see any need to ask anything more... and naturally i come to short replies since i know u r busy. So what happens is this..my stand then was that...we r even...u dun feel like talking much, i wun bother you and i wun act enthu either. I am sorry to say that that is my character..when facing frens i take participation seriously...if i sense tt we cant really participate equally(either u or me),which in this case i see that you dun seem to wan to talk more, i dun see y i shld keep probing on ur things.
So here it goes...u said "u r bored"..i said "too bad..."...u said "i am bad"...i said "yesh i am..."u said "i am evil"...i said "i dun care...". What u expect me to reply u?"y u were bored?"or try to joke around saying "ey i where got so bad???"If i know u were gonna be away for that long...why shld i bother to reply that enthusiastically?
Next thing i know u went to tell my fren "wat happen to me" and "she shld take care of me"...that flares me up.So when i m not being responsive something's wrong with me?okie that aside. I came to tell u i feel taken for granted and u were away again i supposed. Y taken for granted?Like i said...u talk to me when u were free...and left me hanging there without even telling me u will be away.And u wun reply me for the rest of the day sometimes.Next time u would initiate chat...and when i said something...left me there again...i dun expect u to respond promptly...but at least tell me u r away...thats y i felt taken for granted...u wan u talk,u dun wan or no time then no talk...irregardless of MY feelings.
I tried to take it easy...told myself tt hey i shld get used to it,i shld not just angry cos of these things,be cool.But when i heard what u told my fren(abt wat happen to me or i am sot sot),i know it might be some joke, but i cant control it...so what u wan from me???u wan me to be caring to ur feelings and be responsive when u can just left me hanging there as and when u like?That is unfair in my point of view.
I can see that i m being childish by flarig up at little comments and even felt that its my fault for being so idiotic when i typed.But what i heard and read later made me feel that maybe u shld change ur attitude too?
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
10:14 PM
